C.S. Lewis : “I believe in Christianity as I believe that the Sun has risen, not only because I see it but because by it, I see everything else

C.S. Lewis

I truly have loved that quote for years, as I was studying and thinking along these lines as I was recovering from Covid 19, I would add this.

There is a light by which we see Spiritually – through it I see, but it doesn’t just come on and everything is clear. It grows in intensity by Love’s desire to learn resulting in more dots of light are connected which bring the Joy of His/Jesus’ presence in both their understanding but even more so in application.

The elemental aspect of the Hebrew Alef Bet gives a foundational connection between creation and God, The Ultimate reality as God truly is the I am, past present and future more real than the chair that is supporting me. Things ARE NOT AS THEY APPEAR, FAITH COMES BY HEARING AND HEARING BY THE WORD OF GOD.

Perhaps like your right hand rear view mirror, “Things Are Closer Than They Appear.”

So beginning with the smallest letter and perhaps the most significant as this letter is used in every letter in the Alef Bet as it is simply what happens when you put your pen to the paper and begin to draw you make a “YUD”.

The yud is also the first letter in Yahova and when God said I am, it is also the first letter in Jesus/Yeshua, the first letter in hand and intimacy. It is, I believe the God Spark of light the building block of life and love and reality itself.

For an infinite God to make a finite world he had to make himself a small and even more so when Jesus came to earth to pay for our sins. The little atoms that make up everything. The thing about that reality is the reality of love.

Just think of a boy and his dog, or when my father was in his eighties he loved his dog more than ever. That’s a reality, he called him son, (actually that kind of bugged me), but I can still here him saying, “come on son let’s go to bed.” There was a reality of discovery and learning and intimacy, clearly the God Spark, by which I could see it.

While I was struggling with Covid symptoms I got foggy headed couldn’t smell, or taste or even concentrate enough for my normal prayer and Bible study, I kept finding myself dosing off and it frustrated me like I was losing God.

As I was losing my senses my world shrank and then the vertigo and the nausea started. It hit me so hard I could do nothing but lay in bed and worse I had to lie on my right side or the world tumbled beyond my ability to deal with it. My wife Tammy had Covid as well and was in bed with me but because I had to lie on my right side I was turned away from her. I felt alone and isolated.

The vertigo increased to the point that all I could do was crawl up into the fetal position, no senses, no focus, except on the nausea and spinning that really wasn’t even reality.

That was when Jesus made himself known to me, my head was on the pillow yet I felt it was on Jesus lap, and even with no focus or ability to think the Bible verse, Colossians 1:24 floated into my mind.

Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church,

Colossians 1:24

There is no explaining how the reality of that verse comforted me in that moment, Jesus was telling me this was not for nothing, suffering is part of what we all get to do for the sake of the Church. It was a God Spark even when I had no senses to receive it, God still broke through… The WONDER OF IT ALL, The WONDER OF IT ALL, JUST TO THINK THAT GOD LOVES ME.